Tonight I saw Kinsey in the hallway, standing in her PJs, rebutting something I said. It didn't matter what, I felt sad that she would someday not be here.
(I LOVE this picture of kinsey. She is tired and the pic really shows it.)
She came and gave me a hug and as I patted her back I told her I would miss her when she was gone. She didn't know what I meant, so I told her: someday she will be with some guy, maybe in her PJs, and she will be talking to him like she is talking to me now.
She tried to comfort me, saying that was at least 4 years away (so specific!). I hope she isn't planning on leaving as soon as she is 18! I don't think she is, but maybe she is at least planning something. I hope she has plans for the future.
Yesterday her friend Nadia was here, and they started singing "Bohemian Rapsody" in her bedroom. I was cooking and loudly joined in for the instrumental parts. We got into it and finished the whole song after they quickly got the lyrics on their iPads, along with the music. Kinsey wiped away her tear at the end, as all should do, and we laughed as it ended (not appropriate for the song, I know, so shut up!).
Kinsey is very much like me, only without all the 80's and 90's influences; she has only me to influence her with 80's and 90's media. It's a tough roll to fill.
So, how do parents do it? I can't make her think exactly like me because she has not had the influences. I can show her the movies and the TV shows and have her read the books and magazines (PDFs) but it still doesn't mean she will turn out like me.
This is a picture of one of my best friends kids. He is a cutie-patootie. But will he turn out like his parents? I don't know his mother too much, she is awesome and that is all I know. His dad though, well he is all for Ann Rand and Capitalism and is a major asshole. Will this mean cute baby will be an asshole or awesome? Or an awesome asshole?
Family Ties shows us that hippies can have kids and at least one of three will be Alex P. Keaton. He will be all about money and "things" Growing Pains shows us that one of three kids will be a Christian and the fourth, albiet adopted child, will be a big fucking movie star. This makes me think his kid, this awesome pretty boy, will be against capitalism and for helping those on welfare.
But it worries me about my worn kid. Will she be a liyttle like me but have completely different values? She doesn't even know much about Star Wars, and when we watched the Indy 4 episode of South Park she didn't quite get it.
There was no Indiana Jones 4 movie. I wish they would make some great Indy 4 movie. Now that Disney ownes Lucusarts, maybe we will see some sort of sequel, some really fun Indiana Jones 4 movie.
I sit here and type, listening to "Wierd Al" Yankovic, wondering what the future holds. I can only control my own actions, not those of my children. I hope she will figure things out like I have, but she has her own life to live and her own sins to bare. I just hope she realizes her sins are hers and not the results of others.
It's unintelle]igentable, I jhust can't get it through my skull...
Sorry, that was Al singing through me.
I didn't have a point to this post but now I have two things I am thinking of.
First, teach your children well but don't expect them to follow in your footsteps.
The second is to have fun with your family, party on, and don't be such an asshole.
I love you Kinsey!
And then there is my childhood picture. I have a few but here is one. Fuck if I couldn't have any girl I wanted.